IT IS A MIRACLE I’VE LASTED THIS FAR

Each day I’m trying to figure things out.
What’s the reason behind my life?
Why am I still existing up to now?
but the answer is consistently unknown.

It is hard to argue with your thoughts daily
It is not easy to pretend that you are fine.
Everyday was like a full mystery drama
but the difference is, ending was never revealed.

Believe me, I tried so hard everyday
I tried really hard to pass this war.
There’s just too many evils watching me
waiting for me to surrender myself.

How long do I have to hide in the shadows
I just let my whole 20 years past by.
Assuming that maybe, just maybe,
the entrants are all weary and departed.

I forgot a mere soldier is still a human
It can feel exhaustion and be miserable.
The soul I created are now collapsing
Soon I’ll be freed, smiling at my own deathbed.

“Why am I hurt? she asked. Little by little she realized, it’s just her. All her.”